Two days into my week, one and 1/2 rooms done, then Bryon stayed home to work in the office and splat went my motivation. One thing after another always comes up. It has taken a while, 40 years, to figure out that most of the time things just don't go your way. I keep thinking that "tomorrow" it will be different. Maybe if I was skinny, or maybe if all the laundry was done, or maybe if I just have a cup of coffee. So we stamp our feet and scream because nothing is going our way. As a mother I don't outwardly do that ....very often, but I sure act it out in ways like, "I can't get anything done around here because of ..." you name it. I turn everybody into an obstacle. I get tunnel vision for my goals. I get a little lopsided. I loose sight of the big picture.
That brings me to my faith, that's right, my time is not my own. I'm convinced that it belongs to a bigger picture. In our self-centeredness it is so easy to get caught up in the moment of what "I want right now". Our steps are ordered of the Lord. Who's plan? My plan? Who am I? So how do I fight the interruptions and disturbances? And as I sit here right now someone stares in the window wondering when I'll be done so she can stop watching the baby. That's a whole other topic: priorities. I am convince that we are here to live for others. That is real to me. I admit I don't live it out like I want to, but I do believe it. I live for my husband, I promised to be his help meet, for my children, so they can learn to share their time and energy for others and walk true to their values. I live for my brothers and sisters in the faith, I live for my grandmother, my mother...
Ok, I'm ready to go put another load of muddy clothes in washing machine- I have one (washing machine)! That's a blessing. And I will be glad for this is the day that the Lord has made. Period.
Is that your great-grandfather with the paintbrushes? KInda looks like Jeremiah.
ReplyDeleteYes, this is Granny's father.
ReplyDeleteThanks, Jessica for the reminder! It is too easy to think the wrong way isn't it?! I like the way you put this post!! Hope you have a good rest of the day! By the way nice blog!
ReplyDeleteYes my day finished super -after I had a good talk with myself! Thanks Hope!
ReplyDeleteDon't you remember us saying that if we only had a wash machine life would be easier?? if only.. if only.. too many ppl spend their lives wishing they had it differant instead of living in the moment.. Life is hard for a reason.. and I try to look at it that it makes me a better person...
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